so i reckon i might oughta stop smoking weed before a decently long road trip on the interstate. the cars make me nervous. i just wanna either crash into them or drive off the road into a body of water of the side of a hill.
i just tend to freak out a little. you know, the heebie jeebies you get from weed every once and again. only it happened twice this weekend. on the same interstate. i’m okay once i get onto back roads or at least state highways. although those make me want to crash people sometimes too. and i always want to drive into bodies of water for some reason.
but on the interstate with so many cars going so fast my heart starts to race and my mind starts imagining all the crazy shit it can. i start thinking of all my bad karma and maybe today’s the day it all comes back to me.
this weekend i was thinking of how much of a bad son i am to my mother. i was thinking of all the things i’ve done that would dissappoint her. which is pretty much everything i’ve done since about halfway through college.
then i got religious. imagined myself standing in front of the congregation at my church telling them that i never met jesus. i have no idea what jesus thinks, or thought. or what he might want me to do. i never met him. but i know my mother. and she knows how i should act and what i should do and how i should treat others.
which is true. my mother happens to be a religious woman and she tried her best to teach me the right thigns to do and the right way to act and the right way to treat others.
i think i’m done with the xanax too. they just keep me from doing things i want to do. weed don’t do that. i just like to get high. but the fucking xanies make me lazy. yeah, more so than the weed. i can smoke some weed and go to the wal-mart. but down a xanie and i’m out for the count.
and i have xanie hangovers. i’m like a zombie the day after eating one.
snorting them don’t make me lazy like that but they do make me forget. and make me drink. and drinking on xanax is kinda like hanging out with a rock guitarist. you wake up places you don’t remember getting to. so that’s no good either.
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